I’ve taken up meditation. I’ve really began to feel the effects of the stress I’ve been going through lately. I’ve been working like crazy trying to save up as much as I can, yesterday I was in Paris and the day before I was in Germany, surviving the day on 3 hours sleep is not ideal. Ricky said I should look into getting a job in London but I don’t know if I’m ready to settle for that kind of life just yet. I like the adventure, the different cultures that I experience..and I suppose, I also like the time away from everything I have to deal with here. I know it’s not right for me to think of work as escape but it’s getting harder and harder to be myself around here. Mum and dad would be so disappointed if they knew Lucille was drifting back into her old…