Things aren’t going well. Ever since the dinner I’ve been feeling worse, like something’s just pushing on my chest or on my heart. I keep shaking and I’m too jumpy, I can’t even force myself to enjoy anything anymore, I haven’t got the energy to try. I saw my GP and she prescribed me something but all it did was make me feel all the more sick but I don’t want to go through the hell of getting another appointment. My brother keeps sending his texts and the thought of him following me or bringing me home makes this all feel so much worse.

I keep crying without even having a reason and I’m getting sick of it! But there’s no one to really turn to. Who can understand this? If I mention my parents to them they remind me that I’m an adult and I don’t have to listen…